A letter from Hans, conveying to me his last will! … Almost without ceasing I now spend the hours in prayer, and seek out every occasion to sacrifice whatever might offer me even a moment’s joy. Is there such a thing as happiness [1]?? …
[1] Alludes to “Lohengrin”, Act II, Scene 2, Elsa: “Es gibt ein Glück, das ohne Reu” (“There is happiness without remorse.”)
Revised English translation by Jo Cousins.