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I dreamt that Kinowsky had got on the train in order to murder R.; R., on the other hand, dreams sweetly, and Fidi dreams most beautifully of his father’s birthday — which accords well with my own thoughts, now often occupied with R.’s approaching birthday. — R. writes to Frau…

More letter-writing without end! Friendly letters and business ones; among the latter is an inquiry to Bon Seydlitz[1] regarding the advance! … Ever renewed delight in little Fidi. The children out skating! In the evening took up some sonatas by Scarlatti, without much pleasure in them. — Took a long…

Although I had firmly agreed with R. that we should not speak of unpleasant matters — that we should either combat them or endure them, but converse only of what is fair — I nevertheless came to inform him of Mimi’s letter. He thereupon drafts a letter to Prince Bismarck,…

R. dreamt that the Queen of Prussia revealed herself to him as his mother! … “Justice, a beautiful word; sexuality is always at work,” he suddenly exclaims at table, laughing. — Yesterday he had listened to the talk of some men in a beer-house: the villages growing impoverished, no one willing…

We had a wretched night apart, the night-lamps were out of order, and moreover R. had the evil dream that I, having gone mad, wished to part from him! I spend the morning and afternoon in letter-writing; in the evening finished reading the tale of Almansor.[1] [1] Caliph Abu Jafar…

I would give thanks to Heaven and Earth that they permitted me to come into being, since a mission was allotted to me and I was permitted to fulfil it; I would penitently implore forgiveness for the suffering that has arisen through me; and I would bravely bear that which…