R. again had a wretched night, disturbed by all sorts of bad dreams, I am very worried about him. Frau Vitzthum comes in the morning and stays to lunch, which is a great strain on him. I walk to the theater in the afternoon, to gaze on it with solemn,…
Last night R. got up again and read the report of the general staff, whose skill in describing things simply he finds very attractive. The men who direct such a war appear to him to be super human, and certainly no excitement can be compared with the heightened mental activity…
All Souls’ Day! Let it be dedicated to all my liberated souls! I thought in particular of Marie, who always celebrated this day in silence. Today, too, I intend to write to the headmistress of the boarding school—may the spirit of the departed souls stand guard over my decision, so…
The children in church, R. on his score, I dealing with correspondence. In the afternoon from 4 o’clock on a great business debate with the two agents Voltz and Batz; friend Feustel asks me to remain in the room. It concerns the question whether to appoint them mandataries rather than…
R. again has a restless night; he dreamed at first that his first wife mocked him, that he then struck her and she poisoned herself, and that some drops of the poison fell on him; then that he was jealous of Lenbach on my account, and Mimi Schl. tried to…
Departure of the painter, who thanks us for the “material and moral benefits” which he received here. R. again immersed himself in the Battle of Spichern and was restless in consequence. — Yesterday evening Fidi entertained us with his account of the 12 boys (“I’ve had enough of girls”) with…
