Now Herr Schott has died in Milan. — R. again read Freytag today and said, “How it does one good to concern oneself with these ancient relationships, which we can regard as secure, and to abandon for a while our world of Jesuits and Jews, our complete barbarism!” — R….
Daniel’s and Grandmama’s birthday, dull weather. R. dreamed about Rus, that we had taken him on our travels and he turned out to be a lion and suddenly ran down a slope with a laborer; as I was saying to R. that we could not possibly take such an animal…
“As an artist I don’t think much of the spiked helmet,” R. said yesterday to the ladies, “and yet I recognize it as our only salvation.” Today he praises the ladies highly and says he was pleased to see them kiss my hand; when I refuse on any account to…
R. dreamed again about me—that I was giving a big reception, that people were everywhere, and he could not find anywhere to change out of his indoor costume, and I kept saying to him, “But you like it like this.” — Two ladies from Strassburg visit us, friends of Malwida’s,…
R. tells me he dreamed I had told him that I had been seduced in my youth; at first he had not wanted to hear about it, but then it had preyed on him and he had tormented me to tell him about it, but I had said: “You didn’t…
Today, when I voice my concern about the very enlarged household we are now running, R. says: “Wait and see, it will all be right — for Fidi, too. I would have to be ousted by a new opera composer, meaning that my things were no longer performed, but I…
