R. dreamed again about me—that I was giving a big reception, that people were everywhere, and he could not find anywhere to change out of his indoor costume, and I kept saying to him, “But you like it like this.” — Two ladies from Strassburg visit us, friends of Malwida’s,…
R. tells me he dreamed I had told him that I had been seduced in my youth; at first he had not wanted to hear about it, but then it had preyed on him and he had tormented me to tell him about it, but I had said: “You didn’t…
Today, when I voice my concern about the very enlarged household we are now running, R. says: “Wait and see, it will all be right — for Fidi, too. I would have to be ousted by a new opera composer, meaning that my things were no longer performed, but I…
R. wanted to work today, but he had given his last page to the copyists, who are now living in the theater, and he takes a walk there. The young people are freezing, but are proud of consecrating the building! — In the afternoon R. reminded me that I had…
The children in church. I read a few pages of my Woodstock in bed, still full of admiration for it. R. is happy with the house and says: “If anybody had told me that I should one day possess so dear and noble a woman in these comfortable surroundings! But…
Severe cold, but R. is glad, hoping it means that the end of the month will be fine. “Only ’48, the spring of the people, had constant fine weather from March onward; and in spite of all the stupidities, the foundations of German unity were then laid. I believe I…
